I am at a state of awe at human’s evilness. I just don’t get it, can’t get it, do not want to get that reality. I cannot understand it, cannot let it get to me, yet cannot move beyond it without setting the records straight and finding a semblance of answer as to WHY HUMAN BEINGS ARE SO EVIL. No I am not going to accept the excuse that we were overpowered by bad, that no matter how disgusting a situation may be right under our nose, we are such “fragile” beings that we cannot fight it. We CHOOSE to let evil take over, choose to believe the disturbing lies, and choose to take the pill that seemed easier to swallow. It is a conscious and constant choice: lie and keep the pretense, lie and drive another insane, lie and make another being feel like he/she is the worthless one, lie and keep on complaining, lie and hide behind further lies, lie and keep on lying over and over and over until the cup is overflowing so much the lie drown us and block the air and run in our blood and suffocate the life out of us.
I am angry, so very angry. Any logical being with a minimum of sense can see that flowing wave floating above each letter. I am so very angry and hurt and pained and confused and … No word actually exists to exactly translate my state of mind at the chosen evilness some people are fornicating with. No they are not blind. Yes they are fully aware of their actions and actually “plan” the aftermath of each action. They have a back up plan for the back up plan to screw someone else’s life and drive them to madness. And when the proverbial shit hits the fan, when Karma actually steps in, when Life brings back what was sown…. Oh yeah, everyone goes around running like a bunch of crazy ants wondering why oh why the world is coming to an end, why oh why such tragedy. Really now? What kind of audacity is that?
Again I am asking, why have we become so evil? We preach about good, pretend to act good, say we love good, say we love because of good, seem to portray good, but deep down… No stone or prayer or chants or pilgrimage or salt baths or magic potion or anything you wish to name can cure us and cleanse us. And don’t even dare knock on my door with the free-will excuse. It is time we grow some and admit that we are creatures of our own making.